I've been sitting on this blog for days...this is an internal struggle of mine that is much harder than others to get past. I even contemplated not posting this, but as I talk to others and realize that there are lots of people struggling in life right now I realized maybe one person might find something in these words. I honestly feel like this blog is missing something, but maybe those words will come to me later............
This morning I awoke with anger, resentment and a lack of understanding. As dusk approaches I am reminded that we are all human, its up to me to change myself, to FORGIVE AND LET GO all while appreciating moments in my life that I don't necessarily think or want to appreciate.... There will be times in your life that you will feel like your friends, your family, maybe your town or even the whole world is against you. Depending on who you are, what your social status is or maybe even your job....it could be true...maybe the whole town or world is against you. But there is one thing I am confident of in these situations-the fact that (A) you will come out of the situation a stronger and truer version of yourself AND (B) the hard times in life make the "normal" times in your life seem that much sweeter! In life we all face difficulties, tragedies and hard times. Some we bring about ourselves, some are brought about by a power much stronger than we could ever imagine and some things happen because others bring it upon us. No matter what the situation is or why things happen, it is our responsibility to maintain our dignity, our passion for life, stay true to our hearts and souls and to keep living. If we succomb to those people and things that are trying to hard to bring us down...they WILL. But for our own sanity and strength we can't let those hard times beat us down. I recently read a quote that stated something along the lines of if people are talking negative about you, that you must be doing something right or be making some kind of impact on someone. Until I was put in that situation I didn't truly understand how that could be true. If you are doing things with the truest intentions, with all of your soul, then why would people bash you for that? If you are trying to help another person, trying to make their life better and help them discover their inner strength and goodness-why would someone hate you for that? The reason is because we live around other humans, some who are not always filled with the love and passion that we are. We as humans have so many emotions that we can't always control them all, and even when we don't mean to, our emotions hurt others. So don't be afraid to forgive. My grandmother has always said "This too shall pass" It's true about the bad times and it's true about the good times. Time does not stand still, so when we are deep in those bad times. The times when we can't see straight, when we can't eat, when we can hardly even breathe-put one foot in front of the other, take a deep breath an know that tomorrow will come. My main points with all this jibberish are this........ Be aware that we are all human and that we all make mistakes, we all hurt others even when we don't mean to. But also be aware that there are situations and people you will be faced with that may be out to hurt you and that is when your TRUE SELF AND CHARACTER are tested. DO NOT fall prey to those hard times in life. DO NOT bow down to the level of the situation, STAND TALL! Learn, Live, Be Kind, Be Strong, FIND out who are you and what means the most to you in life and do not let anyone or anything convince you otherwise. Grow, Learn, LOVE, Create Peace, Create Beauty in YOUR life.
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There are these moments in our lives that change us. Moments in which we feel our life take a monumental shift. We feel the Earth seem to move...perhaps off track or maybe you feel like your world shifted back into it's orbit. In these moments the world may seem to slowdown, it may even seem as if it's not moving at all. But how did we get to these moments? What decisions were precursors that brought us to the point where we can feel our Earth shift?
I think its our subconscious. Sure we can feel ourselves moving through life, making the movements, we know we are making decisions. But are these decisions and movements we are making a result of our conscious mind? We see our hand moving towards the drink, we feel ourselves in the moments, we can literally taste the foods we love that we know are ultimately killing our bodies....but we continue to make these movements....why?! The answer is deeper than because the food tastes good or its socially acceptable to drink. As I "missed out" on meals the past few days I knew I wasn't missing out at all. Sure they all smelled good, I'm sure the food tasted amazing, but deep down I knew I was taking steps to improve not only my physical being but my mental health as well. No it wasn't easy to just juice for 5 days but it was a test of my subconscious as well as my conscious mind. I've been able to dig deep into my thought process and figure out why I've made decisions (or not made them for that matter). The food I haven't eaten has served as a symbol of the crap I'm clearing out of my mind. And it's worked. The "food" aka subconscious has ruled long enough... I had so much old harbored anger, resentment and frustration. It was all hiding deep in my mind and it was time to get it out. Time to clear the webs, the mud and the muck. Sometimes we have to dig deep into our thoughts, deep into our past, deep into maybe even our surroundings to find out what has brought us to this point in our life. Once we have uncovered those things that have caused us to act, then we must begin the process of detaching those things from our current self. Letting those ships sail away and seep out of our soul. That is the part I am struggling with and embarking on.....the releasing of the subconscious. Separating the old from the new. While I respect those thoughts, emotions and feelings, they are not honoring my future self. They are not allowing me to grow, to flourish or to better myself. So it's time...it's time to detach.... to release... to move forward......I encourage you all to take steps forward to improve your mental and physical self...step outside of what you normally do to see a greater version of yourself. There is a significant link between the habits we have created for ourselves and the happiness we receive or block in our lives.
As I am drinking only juice concoctions, I like to relate them to my life. Today the juices represent habits that I am choosing to no longer submit to in my life. There are these what seem to be small, insignificant habits in my life that are turning into larger life altering habits. It starts with taking a bite of my child's toast in the morning and ends with a glass or three of wine at night. Sure these tiny things are not life changing in themselves but they represent the lack of discipline or self control I often have. Why do I need to take a bite out of a cookie? Go out at night and drink to my heart's content or choose not to go for a bike ride with my child today? Some actions are self destructive behaviors and some are just poor habits-only I can distinguish the two. It's time for me to do that-distinguish between the behaviors that are negatively affecting my life and those little things that are harmless and fun. Our habits when linked together can either create a life of happiness or a life of resentment and anger. I am choosing to create a life of happiness and fulfillment through my habits. Change does not happen overnight-growth is progressive and slow. I am okay with that (as I cringe due to my lack of patience) As I embark on daily routines I now want to ask myself am I doing this to honor myself and because it makes me happy and will produce a beautiful end or I am doing this because it is a habit I have created. I want to become cognizant of every action and ask myself how I feel and think about the present moment. "NINETY PERCENT OF THE FAILURES COME FROM PEOPLE WHO HAVE THE HABIT OF MAKING EXCUSES" -George Washington Carver Just as I've created habits my life, I have also created excuses. Excuses for things I have done, said and ways I have acted. It's time to release those excuses and turn MY excuses into MY happiness. I know I personally have become prisoner to those excuses in my life. They have prevented me from not only moving forward in relationships, but excuses have stopped me from living a fulfilling life, from achieving dreams and goals and its time to stop....just as its time to reverse old habits, it's time to stop making excuses. What are the three biggest things that hold you back in life? HABITS, EXCUSES & ADDICTIONS Release & Remove the devastating 3 - then Redesign Your Life |
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