We've all heard the saying you have to be happy with yourself before others can be happy with you, or you have to be your own bestfriend first. While I think both of these statements are true, the process can be difficult. Due to my husband previously being in the Marine Corps we moved 5 times in the past 8 years. The process of moving I thought had become second nature. About a year after we move I get in a little slump and really miss my friends. I know when it's happening and I know that soon I will find my groove in the new place, but that doesn't mean it makes it any easier.
This time our move was a bit different, we were no longer surrounded by our "Marine Corps family," there were no more events to attend where we met people in the same situation, there were no more groups for wives and no more people I knew from a previous duty station. While in the beginning the lack of familarity was exciting and fun, now the one year mark has rolled around and I've felt myself feeling a bit lost.....this is when I realized I have to get to know myself all over again. When your life has changed so much in such a short period of time, sometimes you lose a bit of yourself. Sometimes life transforms your soul right before your eyes. For me the change has been extraordinary, but it took some time for my head to catch up with my heart and new life. It takes time to get to know yourself, to find out what you believe in and to find what means the most to you in life. Sometimes we discover things about ourselves that may be scary, sometimes we discover things that have been hidden for years and then sometimes we find we are content with our lives just the way they are. Finding new things about yourself can be liberating and empowering, it can open new doors and I personally think re-finding yourself yearly is a necessity. I love the moments when noone is around and I can be alone with my thoughts and my soul. My favorite place to soul search is in nature or on a long car drive. It's truly amazing what you can discover about yourself when you let your mind and heart become open and free. I challenge you take time for yourself. To just let your mind wonder and see where it ends up. To meditate and see what you discover....I challenge you to find yourself and not be scared of what you may find. Be open to change, be open to growth....be open to your TRUE SELF!
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There are these moments in our lives that change us. Moments in which we feel our life take a monumental shift. We feel the Earth seem to move...perhaps off track or maybe you feel like your world shifted back into it's orbit. In these moments the world may seem to slowdown, it may even seem as if it's not moving at all. But how did we get to these moments? What decisions were precursors that brought us to the point where we can feel our Earth shift?
I think its our subconscious. Sure we can feel ourselves moving through life, making the movements, we know we are making decisions. But are these decisions and movements we are making a result of our conscious mind? We see our hand moving towards the drink, we feel ourselves in the moments, we can literally taste the foods we love that we know are ultimately killing our bodies....but we continue to make these movements....why?! The answer is deeper than because the food tastes good or its socially acceptable to drink. As I "missed out" on meals the past few days I knew I wasn't missing out at all. Sure they all smelled good, I'm sure the food tasted amazing, but deep down I knew I was taking steps to improve not only my physical being but my mental health as well. No it wasn't easy to just juice for 5 days but it was a test of my subconscious as well as my conscious mind. I've been able to dig deep into my thought process and figure out why I've made decisions (or not made them for that matter). The food I haven't eaten has served as a symbol of the crap I'm clearing out of my mind. And it's worked. The "food" aka subconscious has ruled long enough... I had so much old harbored anger, resentment and frustration. It was all hiding deep in my mind and it was time to get it out. Time to clear the webs, the mud and the muck. Sometimes we have to dig deep into our thoughts, deep into our past, deep into maybe even our surroundings to find out what has brought us to this point in our life. Once we have uncovered those things that have caused us to act, then we must begin the process of detaching those things from our current self. Letting those ships sail away and seep out of our soul. That is the part I am struggling with and embarking on.....the releasing of the subconscious. Separating the old from the new. While I respect those thoughts, emotions and feelings, they are not honoring my future self. They are not allowing me to grow, to flourish or to better myself. So it's time...it's time to detach.... to release... to move forward......I encourage you all to take steps forward to improve your mental and physical self...step outside of what you normally do to see a greater version of yourself. |
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